SABIE'S MONDAY
Psalm 118:24
This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.
This is the verse that all of us were given as homework to memorise and to confess it aloud to ourselves in the mirror every morning when we wake up this week. I did that 3 times this morning.
On my way to work in the train carridge, I opened up my Bible and saw Phil 4:4 and so read it to myself “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”. I thought to myself, God must be wanting to emphasise to me to choose to look on the bright side of things and rejoice in Him today and at all times, no matter whether the day turns out to be good or not so good. And so it is, I believe, for some things didn’t really go that well today.
I felt really restless at work. Didn’t feel like doing anything. Pace of work also slowed down as a result. Have a total of 36 cases now and I am trying to clear reports that I should have completed a week ago. Had a phone call to attend to which took up a bit of time and a bit of thinking on my part, wondering what to do. Went to the washroom and prayed to God for wisdom, for guidance. Then came out… And while everybody else’s comp was working well, mine couldn’t log onto the internet because a message appeared saying that the network cable was unplugged. I tried restarting the comp and shutting it down a few times but still it was like that. Laid hands on the CPU and prayed and still like that. Thus, no internet access at all the whole day.
After lunch, another shocking piece of news. Through Hazel’s email inbox, read that Joanna has tendered her resignation and 7 May is supposedly her last day. But our Director allowed her to go off at 5pm today instead and she would no longer be returning to work from tomorrow onwards… So sudden. And I had just spoken to her this morning saying that I want to find a time later during the week so that both of us can go and collect some carrier bags that we requested from MCYS. She said okay, and next moment, she’s going to leave. I feel so sad… mood to work was even more affected after that. Everyone else also seemed restless… as I sat at my desk and thought about this, my mind wandered and ended up thinking about things… things that make me cry. Had to wipe the tears away from my eyes a few times…
Thankfully, by about 4 plus, the drive to work gradually came back. I prayed, Holy Spirit, help me with my case notes. Then I started doing. And I think I was never more focused than before during the last 2 hours before 6pm. Thank God for the Holy Spirit. When we pray, He hears and He answers.
After work, I sms-ed Joanna and she replied. She felt very sad too but we agreed to keep in touch with each other still.
I believe that no matter what happens, God is still in control. Changes keep coming and they always do, but I’ve got to learn to adapt. Even when there was no internet access for me today, I considered it again and thought there wasn’t really anything bad for me after all. Doing case notes only required Microsoft Word, no need internet at all. I may not be able to MSN the entire day but that can help me concentrate on my work and other stuff I need to do. What’s more, I can shout across to my colleagues or walk over to them if I need something. Even a loss doesn’t have to be perceived as something so negative. Which reminds me that I should not focus on the problem, but focus on the promise. In all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
Ever wonder why it’s so easy to say and sometimes so hard to do? Truths that we memorise from spiritual infancy and yet can slip our minds when things happen? But it’s in challenging situations that faith gets tested and grows, and things like these reflect the level of our tenacity and the depth of our character. It’s not really that hard at all, when we see things from God’s perspective. Cos God will not let us go through something which we cannot handle. God believes in us and knows we can make it through together with Him, only if we do not let go of His promises and give up. I believe whatever happened today serves as a reminder to me that I must trust God for my life, for my present and for my future because He is trustworthy,He is Almighty, and He is good all the time. Indeed I will still say that this is the day the LORD has made; I will rejoice and be glad in it.
Psalm 118:24
This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.
This is the verse that all of us were given as homework to memorise and to confess it aloud to ourselves in the mirror every morning when we wake up this week. I did that 3 times this morning.
On my way to work in the train carridge, I opened up my Bible and saw Phil 4:4 and so read it to myself “Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!”. I thought to myself, God must be wanting to emphasise to me to choose to look on the bright side of things and rejoice in Him today and at all times, no matter whether the day turns out to be good or not so good. And so it is, I believe, for some things didn’t really go that well today.
I felt really restless at work. Didn’t feel like doing anything. Pace of work also slowed down as a result. Have a total of 36 cases now and I am trying to clear reports that I should have completed a week ago. Had a phone call to attend to which took up a bit of time and a bit of thinking on my part, wondering what to do. Went to the washroom and prayed to God for wisdom, for guidance. Then came out… And while everybody else’s comp was working well, mine couldn’t log onto the internet because a message appeared saying that the network cable was unplugged. I tried restarting the comp and shutting it down a few times but still it was like that. Laid hands on the CPU and prayed and still like that. Thus, no internet access at all the whole day.
After lunch, another shocking piece of news. Through Hazel’s email inbox, read that Joanna has tendered her resignation and 7 May is supposedly her last day. But our Director allowed her to go off at 5pm today instead and she would no longer be returning to work from tomorrow onwards… So sudden. And I had just spoken to her this morning saying that I want to find a time later during the week so that both of us can go and collect some carrier bags that we requested from MCYS. She said okay, and next moment, she’s going to leave. I feel so sad… mood to work was even more affected after that. Everyone else also seemed restless… as I sat at my desk and thought about this, my mind wandered and ended up thinking about things… things that make me cry. Had to wipe the tears away from my eyes a few times…
Thankfully, by about 4 plus, the drive to work gradually came back. I prayed, Holy Spirit, help me with my case notes. Then I started doing. And I think I was never more focused than before during the last 2 hours before 6pm. Thank God for the Holy Spirit. When we pray, He hears and He answers.
After work, I sms-ed Joanna and she replied. She felt very sad too but we agreed to keep in touch with each other still.
I believe that no matter what happens, God is still in control. Changes keep coming and they always do, but I’ve got to learn to adapt. Even when there was no internet access for me today, I considered it again and thought there wasn’t really anything bad for me after all. Doing case notes only required Microsoft Word, no need internet at all. I may not be able to MSN the entire day but that can help me concentrate on my work and other stuff I need to do. What’s more, I can shout across to my colleagues or walk over to them if I need something. Even a loss doesn’t have to be perceived as something so negative. Which reminds me that I should not focus on the problem, but focus on the promise. In all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.
Ever wonder why it’s so easy to say and sometimes so hard to do? Truths that we memorise from spiritual infancy and yet can slip our minds when things happen? But it’s in challenging situations that faith gets tested and grows, and things like these reflect the level of our tenacity and the depth of our character. It’s not really that hard at all, when we see things from God’s perspective. Cos God will not let us go through something which we cannot handle. God believes in us and knows we can make it through together with Him, only if we do not let go of His promises and give up. I believe whatever happened today serves as a reminder to me that I must trust God for my life, for my present and for my future because He is trustworthy,He is Almighty, and He is good all the time. Indeed I will still say that this is the day the LORD has made; I will rejoice and be glad in it.
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